stuff..
10 months. HAH. and about 4 more months till my birthday...and no..its not too early to be excited about it..too much shit is happening ..IB tests..graduation..anniversary...my birthday..mucs birthday...yeaah..i remember...:) anyway..
i feel like writing something pointless ...as usual. dicle probably has me beat with all that writing shes been doing. theres pages and pages, and i hope im not the only one reading it. anyway..im back to normal. but monday. monday was bad. i swear i have withdrawl symptoms when nikita leaves. tuesday i slept all day..and now im back to my emotionless analytical state.
school is fun, being a bitch to my teachers has never been better; yesterday i told my my german teacher that..the oral is "just not happening"...and now we wont have it till after break...he was pissed.. i did get called down to mrs. wetmores office. and if you wanna find out more call me. .and since you wont just know that ..basically im good..
afterschool i sit by my locker.. im tired of getting rides from random people..it forces me to be nice and i dont like that...id rather just sit there for an hour or so and do hw...it works out..on monday the track team runs by and waves...and heh..today it was the football team....these guys are more interesting...they wave every single time they run by aaand they blow me kisses all 20 or so of them..then my english teacher walks by from time to time and comments on the snow..he probably gets annoyed by all the noise the football team makes.
sprng break is coming up...yaay..im not that excited since i already had a week off...nonetheless...its good..
now i should go do stat..but instead im gonna read..so..yeah..
i feel like writing something pointless ...as usual. dicle probably has me beat with all that writing shes been doing. theres pages and pages, and i hope im not the only one reading it. anyway..im back to normal. but monday. monday was bad. i swear i have withdrawl symptoms when nikita leaves. tuesday i slept all day..and now im back to my emotionless analytical state.
school is fun, being a bitch to my teachers has never been better; yesterday i told my my german teacher that..the oral is "just not happening"...and now we wont have it till after break...he was pissed.. i did get called down to mrs. wetmores office. and if you wanna find out more call me. .and since you wont just know that ..basically im good..
afterschool i sit by my locker.. im tired of getting rides from random people..it forces me to be nice and i dont like that...id rather just sit there for an hour or so and do hw...it works out..on monday the track team runs by and waves...and heh..today it was the football team....these guys are more interesting...they wave every single time they run by aaand they blow me kisses all 20 or so of them..then my english teacher walks by from time to time and comments on the snow..he probably gets annoyed by all the noise the football team makes.
sprng break is coming up...yaay..im not that excited since i already had a week off...nonetheless...its good..
now i should go do stat..but instead im gonna read..so..yeah..
posted by whatifyourfingerswerealive @ 6:02 PM
4 Comments:
At 6:57 AM,
Orange_Kiss said…
Thanks for reading my blogs. I know couple people read them, like you and Kitas, and Christina, and I think Yuriy does too.
I don't know about the German oral, Maria? Is it today?I have to call you to ask you if it is today. But it's too early... God I stayed up until almost 4 o'clock in the morning. You won't believe that I got nothing done. I just wrote my oral, I haven't even looked over it. I hope the oral is not today.
God, I feel so freaking lost. I don't know, Maria. I guess I do have everyone beat with the amount of crap I have been writing. You have no idea, and I even keep a separate journal where it's personal and I am the only one sees it. I feel lost in my own skin. Maria, I don't feel like myself. I don't feel like me. There is something missing from me.
Do you want to hang out today? I think that sounds good. I can give you a ride home if you don't have a ride home. Or I could just take you to my house. That would be fine too.
I have a court date during German. I better study for my Biology Test that I am going to fail. You know everything in my life has come to a point where I just have this "what's the point" attitude. What's the point of studying if I am going to fail anyways?
I'm trying different things. I guess I understand why Sienna Miller got a haircut after she broke up with Jude Law. You know after someone important to you comes out of your life, you want and need some sort of change. I feel like I need some sort of change. Even though, my life has changed drastically. I have so much to say yet nothing comes out. Or in my opinion most stays in. I just miss him so much. I don't know why it had to come to this. Thank you for listening.
By the way, I don't want you to sleep your life away. Kitas will always be there. You guys are just meant to be separated from each other in order to keep the sex hot. Well you see, I am not even getting any. Be happy. Smile and embrace life. I know you do. You always tell me that. Hehe. It makes me feel good to be able to say that to someone else.
Everyday I am hoping that things will get better. To think that it has only been two weeks... You want the truth, Maria, it seems like I have been separated from him for 2 decades. Longest two weeks of my life.
Thank you. I owe you. I love you.
At 4:21 PM,
whatifyourfingerswerealive said…
wow dicle that was longer than my actual blog..you know the oral sitiuation..and i feel really fucken good about it..i dont know what to tell you because i cant quite relate to what youre feeling...what did kleve say btw? i have that same whats the point attitude..HAH. if yuriy was jude law...basically i would have to steal him from you...jk..
speaking of that natalie is a bitch...and yeah we should hang out..things will get better indeed..they always do...well..unless they get worse..but after that they do get better..cheer up..(yeah i know its not that simple but i might as well say it)
muc, short and sweet as usual...but i dont think you can take on the whole team..
At 8:59 PM,
Orange_Kiss said…
I know when you hit rock bottom there is nowhere to go but up. I guess I did hit rock bottom. Now I can climb back up. I know he knows better then to go to her. If he does go to her, she is stupid because the only reason he will ever go to her is because he still loves me and she is nothing but a distraction.
Anyways, hehe about the football team. Sorry this isn't that long. But I have to go do alot of crap for school. :) Loves
At 12:12 AM,
whatifyourfingerswerealive said…
im excited about break
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