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ah..graduation is tomorrow..today..im excited..i guess..
im more interested in my ib diploma status however and therefore cant wait for july..other good things will be happening in july as well ..ive mentioned this earlier..numerous times..my birthday..mikhails birthday..legalization of my driving (that may not be such a good thing for everyone else) ...
then theres passports and visas to be gotten..so i can finally go somewhere by mid july...if not, ill have to settle for a sunny part of the united states....which would kinda suck..unless we can figure out how to go on a ROAD TRIP....which would be "fan-fucking-tastic" as nikita would put it..
yeah i know..the chances are close to zero...but i still remain a dreamer at heart..its quite patehtic really..how frequently disappointed i am ..im gonna have to lower my expectations again..

i need to go see x three...mikhails lack of enthusiam is just depressing..while nikita is probably getting drunk and high and cheating on me somwhere in canada at this moment.....but i still have hope..and it is keeping me alive..or at least awake..for some reason nobbody is quite as excited about mutants as i am....freaks..

...people who bail out on plans suck..thats what i decided...you plan and plan..and..plan and then.."yeaah..im too tired.."...or some other stupid excuse..who cares about sleep anyway.....it arouses violent tendencies within me..
no not sleep..but a stupid excuse..

anyway..bed time..